I Find It Difficult Being Committed In A Relationship.
I've been dating this guy for close to four years now. Next year will make four years am with him. He broke my virginity and after then the love I had for him got so high that I could do anything for him. Not until the day I had a girls day out with my girlfriend's and they were shading me. Saying stuffs like my boyfriend isn't so fine and he doesn't have enough money and I've never considered these things before since we started dating. They also made statements like being committed to just one guy is boring.
I fell for their cajole, and I decided to give it a try. I tried dating another guy without the awareness of my boyfriend and I found it fun. I had s*x with the guy and I found out he practically does better than my boyfriend. And since then I've been a random d*ck seeker and money seeker. I know what am doing is bad but I just can't find a way to stop.
Please I need advice, am punishing myself and also punishing the guy who loves me more. What do you think my problem is?