Each Day I Remember This I Feel Like Hurting Myself ( Advise )
Each day I remember this I feel like hurting myself, it all start this way.
I was in relationship with a girl, I so much love and respect her. This year would have make it the fifth year together but just last year after our fourth year anniversary I found out that she was cheating on me with my best friend..
When I first meet this girl she prove to me that she is a virgin and that was five years ago and that makes me to love her and cherish her more.. As time goes by we started making advances on each other and she wanted me as much as i do too but i could not go against my bound since she is a virgin, but before then I have summoned some courage to ask my mom if it is good to break ones virginity and she said yes if only I would spend my life with the lady but since I have a long way to go because am yet to gain admission that I should not try such for it is a spiritual attachment that could cause misfortune in nearby time..
First year passed, and on our second year anniversary she was a bit drunk and wanted me to have her which i was willing to but when I wanted to make love to her, she started reminding me of her virginity and my moms advice hits my brain and i let her be and after that incident I gained admission into a polythecnic far from home which makes it hard for us to see or be together except when I visit home...
So after the third year together without s*x, the love started fading away until last year Xmas that I found out she was having affair with my friend and what pains me most is that she went telling our friends that I was not man enough, that makes her to leave and she can't have anything to do with me again..
But just two months ago, she called me on phone with a strange line telling me to forgive her and accept her back that nothing happened between two of them and she can prove that to me and knowing fully well that I still love her and can't be with another since then because of her sacrifices and effort in my life, I don't know what to do..